I love this time of year, makes me so hopeful for the new year and I love looking back at the last 12 months. 2015 has been a big year for me. As most of you know we had a baby in September and since then, rightly so – life has not been the same. But heading into 2015 it was a different story. I started the year as a sad sack.
Sick of trying for a baby and emotionally drained from the experience, 2014 was full of disappointment. I started off 2014 naive. We started trying at christmas 2013 in NYC so I assumed first go we would get a home run and I would fall pregnant, i even waited until after Disney World so I could go on the rides – I shouldn’t of bothered waiting! Fast forward to NYE 2014 and we had been trying for over 12 months – which I know for some is a short amount of time but when you are trying it feels like everyone and their dog is pregnant instead of you. Some people struggle for years to fall pregnant and to them I salute your ongoing determination to keep going. Every period you get it is like reminder is painful, physically and emotionally that once again (in my case) your body has failed to do what it was suppose to.
For us, I had the problems. My obstetrician discovered that I had PCOS and so I hardly ever (never) ovulated. So I tried Clomid and was told after 6 months if that didn’t work I would need to have my tubes cleaned out – tempting!
So NYE 2014/2015, we stayed at home and I got all teary (as a do) that we should of had a baby by now. Cameron being the amazing husband he is promised by NYE 2015/2016 we would have a ‘little one to love.’ 4 days later we drove 12 hours to pick up Penny our beagle puppy. Penny was going to take my mind of things, i had resigned to the fact that Clomid wasn’t working and I would have to have my tubes cleaned out around Easter. Cameron then started planning our trip to Iceland in September another thing to take my mind off the no baby situation. Penny surely did take my mind off things for those first couple of sleepless, peeing of the floor, nights. So much so that when my period was due but it hadn’t arrived, we decided that it must of been the Clomid and lack of sleep. Cue a week later and it’s Cameron’s birthday. I did a test by myself I didn’t want to him to get bad news on his birthday so kept it to myself. I did the test it came back positive – I ran to show Cameron and was actually speechless!
So within a week we got 2 little ones to love – Penny and Paddy! So 2015 was really a great year – even with Penny turing out to be a tad more rambunctious than we had hoped and the morning sickness sticking around a little longer than I would like (17 weeks) we had a lot of things to be blessed for.
2015 definitely had some downs with the death of many wonderful people in our lives, and me not really being the natural at motherhood that I would of thought! But overall a great year, and a lot of experiences that make the future bright!